Hey All,

Thank fuck August is over tomorrow, Ive hated August..

This August, I have felt stress, Attached from myself a lot more than normally, and the good days have not made up for the shit days..
Emotionally block also, cause can deal with issues..
The hole year has been fun, good days have really made up for the shit ones... and well at least its only now am finely getting board, and feeling shit.. pff

Start college On monday, after having a year out of education. Would love to take Photography but the course is full, but hopefully someone will drop out and there will be a place for me, other than that I will be taking, AS levels in Philosophy, Sociology and Media Studies.
Am in conflict about how I feel about college.. really I shouldn't worry about it, but Ive had a while to think about.. and now have really ate myself up about it.. I mean its gonna be good, to meet new people.. more people who are my age and more females.. maybe Ill become more in touch with my female side.. all though all my life being friends with girls.. hasn't change the fact am so in touch with my male side.. grr

Ive had such a wild lifestyle this year, its gonna be hard to get back into education and a normal, past like lifestyle..
I moved away from parents home this year also.. but now.. am going back into education, ive had to move back with them, due to not working.. and actually faces issues.. and not running away from family issues.. so theres a reason this months been so crap..
Overall, college will be shit to begin with but.. it will sort me out and make things better in the end..
At least everything I have found this year will help me for this year.. cause last year had a massive breakdown in college.. and couldn't go anymore..

On the other hand, physical I felt shit, moving back in with parents.. has fucked my diet up.. and starting to feel more unhealthy and fat.. even though am most likely not.. but I cant get fid of that feeling!!
Gonna try at start college.. at my normal good diet.. but don't want to make to much pressure and stress for myself..
Anyway I can say this month Ive been mostly Beeleasher and not scram.. and really I need a good balance of those too.. other wise I feel shit! Grr

Sorry for the negative entry.. but I need to let it out..
anyway expect some new work from be slowly.. have a film camera now.. so look out.

Thank you for your support.. XXXX


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